Photo Credits~

(owl:donaldthompson95 on flickr, luna:BillLepidoptera/harkphoto.com on flickr, willow/fence:trensamiro on flickr, all remaining: Merana Leigh)

Psalm 25:4-5

Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths;

guide me in your truth and teach me,


for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long (NIV)





Drench yourself in words unspoken, Live your life with arms wide open,

Today is where your book begins, The rest is still unwritten. ("Unwritten" by Natasha Beddingfield)





It matters not how long we live, but how!



Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Praise to You, Lord God!

(photo credit: Santita88)

This picture just personifies how I feel right now. After weeks of uncertainty, fear, and an unbelievable amount of reflection & soul-searching, I finally feel free! And I praise you Lord, God, with tears streaming down my face that I am not facing cancer or surgery. Now perhaps I can sleep through the night without waking in a fit, and not being able to get back to sleep.
And I'm sorry, Lord. You know that trust is hands-down the biggest problem I have. I heard you clearly saying this afternoon, after I got the call from my first doctor, "When are you really going to trust me?" To which I replied, "I do trust you, Lord, but...". To which you immediately cut me off & said, "Yeah, it's that 'but' part you still need to work on!"
I hear you, Lord. And I'm truly sorry. I don't know how to thank you for the promise I started to wonder about - "plans for hope and a future". You do have them for me. I guess I just should have not given in to the despair & doubt & worry, and instead maintained in the forefront (not in the background) that I refused to believe the God I serve who has finally gotten me to the place He's been leading me for 11 years, would allow me to face that kind of struggle without even having the chance to enjoy this place for a little while. But you showed me, just like you always do...again. I'm trying, Father, I am...to trust you implicitly. Forgive me.
But mostly....thank you, Jesus, for helping me to really evaluate my life & those things that matter most. I look forward to what I can do for you. Light my path, and show me the way. I want to live in a way that is pleasing to you, and not about me.
And my dear, dear BB's .... thank you ALL for your kind words and prayers and faith. Your love and encouragement has strengthened me to face whatever I would face. I praise God for all of you as well!
~ Merana

13 comments:

  1. Hi Merana,

    All of us at times, fall down; I've certainly managed to do so in some of the most clumsy, embarrassingly comical, and awkward ways. What I'm able to now see is how grace picks me up, dusts me off and shows me a more excellent way.

    You've learned an important lesson by going through this circumstance and and personal crisis but through it all, the Lord remained faithful; accompanying you through every step, doubt, fear and worry.

    Something the Holy Spirit has been reminding me is that God is never caught off guard or surprised; He knows all.

    If my trust in God is weakened, He isn't thrown for a loop. He allows me to experience these things because they provide me opportunities for spiritual growth. God is more patient with me than I could ever be with myself or anyone else. For that I'm thankful.

    For this one moment, I will praise Him for getting you through unharmed.

    Blessings and peace.

    MTJ

    BTW: Instead of pointing to your previous post, I'll change the link to this praise report.

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  2. I'm so happy to hear you've gotten good news! Praise GOD!!!

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  3. Praise the Lord for the good news.

    You know faith and trust is something that is gradually growing when trials come our way...it is not an instant overnight thing. It comes at such a cost...but it is so worthwhile. Don't be hard on yourself...we all take baby steps and the Lord knows your heart.

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  4. I could have written this myself one year ago. I do know every emotion that you express here.
    He's a great God, full of grace and mercy. His own son prayed that the bitter cup would pass from him. And He was perfect.

    God's grace is sufficient even over our weak faith.

    I love your picture; I celebrate your FREEDOM, and most of all, I thank our God for it all!

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  5. Just dropping by to check in and see how you are doing. It's certainly not easy to trust. But we have a wonderful God who can be trusted. He keeps His promises. God bless you as you live for Him.

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  6. Oh, Merana - I'm just catching up on all my blog reading, so I'm sorry I've haven't responded yet to all that's been going on with you. But, what a wonderful answer to prayer! I am so happy for you! I have had some times too when I was afraid of a bad test result, and the big "C" has always been an emotional bogeyman I'm scared of. FEAR is a monster, I talked about it on Monday. And yes, like you, I often feel like God is saying to me, "When are you REALLY going to trust Me?" But, I'm still growing - sometimes in "baby steps" - but God's work continues...

    Again, my friend, praise God for this answer to prayer!! :)

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  7. Welcome news, so happy for you.
    Praise the Lord! He is so good.
    Joy & Blessings,
    Virginia

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  8. Thank you for sharing your heart with us and also for sharing your good news. I'm rejoicing with you right now.
    Blessings,
    Charlotte

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  9. Praise the Lord, I'm so happy you got such good news.
    Blessings,
    Ginger

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  10. Praise God for the good news!!
    Stopping by from Spiritual Sunday!!
    Blessings,
    ~ Ruth

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  11. Hi Merana Sweetie...
    Praise God for the wonderful news. I am so thrilled for you, and am right here rejoicing with you sweetie.

    Now get the much needed rest and start down the new road of your life. It is going to be a fabulous journey sweet friend. I can't wait to hear all about it.

    Many hugs sweetie, Sherry

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  12. Praise the Lord for good news.....God bless you today.

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  13. so glad for this good news. Tons of blessings to you.

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