Photo Credits~

(owl:donaldthompson95 on flickr, luna:BillLepidoptera/ on flickr, willow/fence:trensamiro on flickr, all remaining: Merana Leigh)

Psalm 25:4-5

Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths;

guide me in your truth and teach me,

for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long (NIV)

Drench yourself in words unspoken, Live your life with arms wide open,

Today is where your book begins, The rest is still unwritten. ("Unwritten" by Natasha Beddingfield)

It matters not how long we live, but how!

Sunday, April 25, 2010


I've come a long way lately. I've had some rough patches & got pretty mad at God & was truly ready to turn my back on Him. It's that stubborn side of me He created that kept me hanging on to the thread of faith I had left. That's what got me to call my pastor sobbing "I just don't understand how any of this is for my good, or for the good of my children. Where's the hope He promises in Jeremiah 29:11? I just don't have it." Then my pastor asked me a very simple question..."How much do you worship God?" Boy, that smacked me upside the head (kinda like Gibbs does to Tony on NCIS all the time {you'll come to learn I'm an avid NCIS fan, so there may be many references in posts to come}). Funny thing is...God woke me up at 4 a.m. that same morning saying simply, "Why would I bless you with anything more, when you haven't bothered to thank me for the blessings you already have received." Ummmm...okay. Point taken.

So I turned my attitude around. And I learned what it is to completely surrender this time. No more holding on to what I want...much less trying to look for it, or trying to make it happen. No more pity party to which I hear very distinctly "oh, what's the matter, are you not getting your way?" (hear that as you reprimanding a toddler!). And I pray the following:

"Dear God, I am full of wishes, full of desires, full of expectations. Some of them may be realized, many may not, but in the midst of all my satisfactions and disappointments, I hope in You. I know that you will never leave me alone and will fulfill your divine promises. Even when it seems that things are not going my way, I know that they are going your way, and that, in the end, your way is the best way for me. O Lord, strengthen my hope, especially when my many wishes are not fulfilled. Let me never forget that your name is Love. Amen" (Henri J.M Nouwen)

Let me tell you...there has been so much internal peace in my life since I made that decision. Turmoils & struggles still abound, but peace prevails.

And when I finally let go of my plan, that allowed God to start working His plan. So now...I'm able to reach out to anyone who will stop by & stay awhile through reading what He's revealed to me. And more importantly, I see now that I wouldn't have time to do any of these things had I tried to pursue my plan.

What an awesome experience. Hasn't been easy, and most certainly hasn't been pleasant. But, now I see just how rewarding it's been. I can say in all honesty that through our struggles we grow stronger. It's hard to admit this, Lord...but You were right, and I was wrong! (P.S. ... thank you for that!)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Just gettin' started

Thanks to my dear friend, Kathleen, for showing me the ropes to set this up!!! Much to follow, anyone who checks in. God has much to say, folks ... and I'm itchin' to use the gifts He's given me of the written word to share with you. So, stay tuned!